LETS GET MORE PERSONAL

(im even gonna type correctly)WELL SINCE THE LAST VENTING SESSION BACK IN DECEMBER NOTHING HAS CHANGED MUCH IM STILL STRESSED AND DEPRESSED BUT IVE GOTTEN TO THE I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ITS TOO LATE STAGE...MY GPA HAS DROPPED BECAUSE OF MY LACK OF AMBITION AND IVE NOTICED THAT THIS YEAR IVE STATED THAT I WAS GONNA GET MY SHIT TOGETHER AND GET IN THE BALL GAME IN HIT IT OUT OF THE PARK BUT THE TRUTH IS I DON'T THINK I'LL CHANGE OR AM GONNA CHANGE ANYTIME SOON I'LL JUST END UP RIDING OUT THESE LAST 3 WEEKS OF SCHOOL ON A WISH AND A PRAY(other ppls prays)AND WHERE I END UP NEXT AUGUST OR SEPTEMBER IS UNKNOWN I MIGHT JUST BE SITTING ON MY MOM's COUCH EATING CEREAL AND WATCHING TV WHILE ALL MY HOMIES ARE HAVING THERE AWESOME FRESHMEN TIME AT THE COLLEGES THEY HAVE ALREADY BEEN ACCEPTED TO...MY LIFE MAY NOT TURN OUT THE WAY I WANT IT TO ALL BASED ON SELF-DESTRUCTION YOU CAN'T NECESSARILY BLAME ANYONE FOR YOUR ACTIONS OR THINGS YOU HAVEN'T DONE ITS YOUR LIFE..I KNO MANY PEOPLE ARE SUCCESSFUL WITH OUT ATTENDING COLLEGE BUT I FEEL LIKE WITHOUT THAT COLLEGE DEGREE YOU WON'T GET ANYWHERE BECAUSE THAT DEGREE IS YOUR STEPPING STONE AND KEY TO ANYTHING YOU WANT TO ACHEIVE IN YOUR LIFE..I DON'T KNOW IM CONSIDERING ATTENDING PERIMETER FOR A YEAR AND GETTING MY GPA UP THEN TRANSFERRING TO SCAD(the originally planned school from the day i had heard of it in 10th grade)AND IF NOT THERE CLAYTON STATE JUST SO I WON'T BE A COMPLETE DICKFACE OF A FAILURE BUT YEAH ON A BETTER NOTE PROM WAS ON FRIDAY THE STAR YR CHRONCILES FOR THAT WILL BE UP SOMETIME THIS WEEK AND MY 18TH BIRTHDAY IS NEXT MONDAY(may 3rd)...I JUST THOUGHT OF THROWING THOSE HAPPY THINGS IN THERE BECAUSE SOMETIMES THINKING IN TYPING SAD THINGS IS NOT ALWAYS FUN BUT ANYWAY THE INTELLIGENCE OF MY BRAIN GOES FUTHER THAN OTHERS BUT MY CHOICE TO USE IT IS VERY SLIM..MY CREATIVITY IS ALSO SOMETHING THAT IS A STRONG POINT THAT I WILL ALWAYS PUT BEFORE ANY SCHOOL WORK..I CAN THINK OF A LIFE QUOTE AND DRAW SOMEONE IN A QUICK INSTANT BUT TO SIT AND DO MATH ALWAYS ENDS UP BEING SUCCESSFUL IN THE NIGHT OR THE DAY ITS DUE..MY WRITING ABILITY IS HIGH ALSO I LIKE WRITING ESSAY BUT AS FAR AS STARTING IT..ITS NORMALLY LAST..IN THE COMPANY I KEEP I ONLY HAVE ONE PERSON THAT I CAN DEPEND ON NO MATTER WHAT EVERYONES YOUR FRIEND IN SCHOOL AND ON FACEBOOK BUT IF YOU REALLY NEEDED THEM WOULD THEY COME THROUGH DON'T TRUST MANY MY ONLY TRUE FRIEND IS SIR MICHAEL BILLINGSLEA OF ONTARIO CANADA(l.go is my n word 2 doh)...YOU CAN'T RELY ON MANY IVE LEARNED THAT SO MOST WOODIES N OTHERS IVE GROWN TO KNOW AND I TEXT FROM TIME TO TIME ARE JUST ASSOCIATES LIKE YOU MAY BE COOL WITH THEM NOW BUT DOWN THE LINE YOU'LL NEVER HEAR FROM THEM AGAIN ITS LIKE A NEW KID MOVING TO A NEW SCHOOL BUT THE PERIOD OF TIME IS LONGER..ITS LIKE YOU TAKE TIME TO GET TO KNOW THESE PEOPLE OR THEY SWEAR ON GOD THAT THEY WANNA BE COOL OR KNOW YOU BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY THEY ONLY KNOW THE SCHOOL YOU NEVER THE SERIOUS SIDE AND EVEN IF YOU TRIED TO SHOW THEM WOULD IT EVEN MATTER MOST PEOPLE CAN'T EVEN HANDLE A SERIOUS CHAT WITH ME AND I KNOW THAT SO I DUMB IT DOWN AND ACT CRAZY BUT IN ALL ACTUALLITY I ALMOST NEVER SMILE INSIDE IMMA A LONER I DIDN'T GET ANY FRIENDS TIL MY 10TH GRADE YEAR I REALLY THINK I MIGHT KILL SOMEONE ONE DAY AND I ALMOST HAVE NO LIFE IVE NEVER HAD A BIRTHDAY PARTY AND ANYTIME I PLANNED SOMETHING NO ONE WOULD COME..IMMA INDIVIDUAL BUT A COPY AT THE SAME TIME BECAUSE NO ONE IS REALLY DIFFERENT WE MAY HAVE THE DIFFERENT FEATURES BUT WE CAN NEVER BE DIFFERENT BECAUSE EVERYONE LOOKS UP TO SOMEONE IN TRYS TO IMILATE THAT PERSON(even though i dont think u should actually try to look up sumone unless dere famous or ur parents bcuz lookin up to ppl ur age is jus dick ridin)THUS WE ARE THE SAME WE ALL CAME FROM THE SAME GOD NO MATTER WHAT RELIGON YOU ARE BECAUSE ALLAH AND GOD ARE THE SAME PERSON..I COULD GO ON LONGER I SHOULD WRITE A BOOK BUT I'LL DO ANOTHER ONE NEXT MONTH

-SAMMY